Things happened back then. You know, lots of things I can't understand. Feeling abandoned and think that there's no one gonna stick with you (no matter what). Because maybe the person you wished never leave you, you think should be your first love (just because your friends say so), in reality is never been there.
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Okay, he was there. But too far till you hardly saw him.
You're not saying that you hate him. Hate the situation, maybe. But not him as a person. Because as you grow older, you realise there's many things you can't control. That any kind of separation with the one you love is never been asked for.
There's no sweet times left in your story. There's maybe just a bunch of memories how you two are trying hard to make this kind of relationship works. It's kinda sweet, though :)
That feeling never disappeared. To be left and didn't have so called first love. But as a human, knowing there's a person who loves you (though he left, and don't ask why he left if he loves you :p), it's broke my heart. The old body is sad most of the time. Thinking about what he did years ago. Something that he don't regret but it's killing him to carry the consequences for the rest of his life.
Dad please be okay.
I'm fine. Everything is fine.
God is good, so does life.
I don't know if "I love you" would be the proper word to say.
I just wanna see you happy. So please be happy :)
